38 weeks down....2 weeks to go!

I am SO done!

And if anyone tells me to be patient again I will blow my top! For the most part, the last few weeks have been just fine. I feel good physically but emotionally I am a time bomb! I am really tired of feeling like a lunatic! I cry at everything...and I have no idea when I will just lose it and and start crying...and I'm talking WAILING....not just tears and sobs....but actual "I need to bury my head in a pillow so no one thinks I've lost it" wailing.

I am so anxious for Hazel to be here and I am trying to be patient. I am looking forward to going into labor...but not labor itself! I have gone through all her drawers for the millionth time. Today I counted her outfits out of boredom....(Daddy I think we may need a few more!) I have turned on her swing and bouncer more times than I can count, and anytime someone comes over I show them every outfit I have for her and show them all her "gear." She will be one swinging, bouncing, strolling baby!

I can't wait to hold my little Bird. I can't wait to smell her, and kiss her sweet head, and put her toes in my mouth...I can't wait to look at her little hands and nibble on her nose. I love her more than I ever thought was humanly possibly and I cannot imagine loving her more but I know I will...and I can't imagine how my heart will hold it all. See?! I'm crying again! Tom and I are already trying to figure out how on earth we will ever be able to let her go. I try to imagine how it is at all possible for me to parent her as well as my parents parented me.

Spring is here...and I am watching our backyard turn from a brown yuckiness to green green green! I can't wait until the trees are full of leaves, the flowers are blooming and it is warm enough to sit out on our rocking chairs with Hazel and enjoy it all.

Well, I'm gong to go bury my head in a pillow now and pray that Hazel comes very soon....

9 Weeks to Go!!!

So a lot has happened since my last post. Tom picked up the baby furniture and set it up to surprise me! It was so nice of him and I knew it was hard work because he did it all himself...he is a proud Daddy already!

Aunt Rachel started a mural of a tree in Hazel's room...I can't wait to see the finished product, it looks awesome already!

Baby Hazel seems to be doing well. She is a little kicker and when I think it is time to rest she thinks it is time to start jumping around...I love every minute of it! She is getting pretty strong. Daddy and I can feel her kick especially hard at around 4 to 5AM every morning...I think she is telling me it's time to eat!

I have bought Hazel lots of clothes...I just can't resist. One of my favorite (and less practical) picks was a little denim skirt and red and white polka dot top to match...so sweet!!!

Tom and I have been reading to Hazel, and our favorite book is Sheep in a Jeep...if you've never read it, pick it up or check it out and give it a read...it's pretty quick. It's makes me and Tom laugh so hard because Tom has a jeep, and like in the book, Tom's Jeep was "Jeep in a heap." The last line of the book is "Jeep for sale-cheap." We just love it and I nearly have it memorized. I also bought On the Night You Were Born which is also pretty sweet. We plan to read it to her when she arrives....

We went to our first Childbirth class last Saturday...it was long and tiring!!! There are two more and they look like they'll be pretty interesting.

I saw the doctor last on February 1. He said I my uterus was measuring big, so we'll have an ultrasound in about 5 weeks to see how big Hazel is. My glucose test was fine, I've only gained 10 lbs, and my blood pressure is good.

I am feeling pretty good too, except for some problems sleeping...nothing a little Tylenol PM or Unisom can't handle! I had bad headaches early one, but none for a while and this makes me very happy, headaches stink!

I have a baby shower in Quincy this weekend, I am excited about it but not looking forward to the long drive...I'm sure I'll be fine though and the trip with Mom and Rach will be fun. Plus I get to see family and show off my belly...I love my belly!!!!

That's all for now!!!